fate

I BELIEVE IN FATE. FATE IS NOT SOMETHING YOU CAN TOUCH OR TASTE. FATE HAS NO ODOR OR COLOR. FATE IS UNRECOGNIZABLE AS A TANGEABLE OBJECT. BUT I KNOW WHEN FATE TAKES HOLD. I KNOW WHEN FATE WORKS ITS MAGIC. I BELIEVE THAT I AM IN THE HERE AND NOW BECAUSE OF FATE. A SERIES OF DECISIONS HAVE LANDED ME IN MY CURRENT CONDITION; A SERIES OF DECISION BROUGHT ABOUT BY FATE. ALTHOUGH I HATE MY LIFE SOMETIMES I CANNOT FAULT FATE FOR THAT HATRED. LIFE WILL HAND YOU LEMONS SOMETIMES SO GO AHEAD AND GRAB A SPOON FULL OF SUGAR AND MAKE LEMONADE. DONT HATE WHERE FATE HAS BROUGHT YOU BUT EMBRACE IT FOR WHERE IT MAY TAKE YOU.

SO HERE I AM RIGHT NOW. I AM ON THE VERGE OF GRADUATING COLLEGE, ON THE VERGE OF BECOMING SOMETHING I AM UNAWARE OF. HERE I AM ON THE VERGE OF BECOMING THE FIGHTER I WANT TO BE. HERE I AM ON THE VERGE OF SOMETHING SO BEAUTIFUL THAT I MIGHT ONE DAY CALL IT LOVE. HERE I AM WONDERING IF I SHOULD LEAVE THE PAST COMPLETELY BEHIND AND JUMP OFF THE LEDGE OF THIS PLACE THAT I AM STUCK IN. I KNOW I WANT TO BE A PRO FIGHTER AND I WANT TO WORK FOR THAT. I KNOW I WANT TO GO TO GRADUATE SCHOOL I JUST DON'T KNOW FOR WHAT. I KNOW I COULD FALL HEAD OVER HEALS FOR YOU IF YOU WOULD ONLY LET ME. I KNOW I WANT TO TRAVEL TO PLACES I HAVE NEVER BEEN. I KNOW I AM A DREAMER I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT MY DREAMS ARE.

INSTEAD OF TRYING TO FORCE MY LIFE AND MY RELATIONSHIP STATUS IN THE DIRECTION I THINK IT SHOULD GO, I LEAVE MY LIFE AND MY LOVE TO YOU FATE. SO IF FATE GOES MY WAY I WILL BE ABLE TO FIGHT FOR MANY YEARS TO COME AND BE PAID TO DO SO, YOU WILL REALIZE THAT WE MIGHT BE GOOD TOGETHER, I WILL GET A GOOD JOB THAT WE SUPPORT ME FINANCIALLY AND GIVE ME THE FREEDOM TO TRAIN AND TRAVEL, I WILL SOMEHOW FALL INTO GRADUATE SCHOOL, AND I WILL BE HAPPY. SO HERES TO YOU FATE. I YET AGAIN PUT MY LIFE IN YOUR HANDS. I TRUST YOU WILL POINT ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION AS YOU ALWAYS HAVE.